So my therapist said to work on my new non negotiable’s with life going forward. This is part of working through all this anger. Okay, well what won’t I deal with going forward. Not just with people, but with work and other aspects of life as well. This is hard. Sometimes you just get used to how this are. Stale, comfortable, complacent. So what won’t I put up with anymore? That’s a great question. I refuse to be someone’s verbal toilet. I want to travel more. I desperately want a real vacation this year. I haven’t had a proper vacation in over four years and it’s depressing. Not just a long weekend somewhere, but like an a whole week away somewhere. Honestly, doesn’t even really matter where as long as it’s warm. I want more friends. Like friends that are in Chicago friends outside of my husband. I have friends but honestly most of them don’t live near me so I can’t go hang out with them.
What would be your non negotiable’s in your life? Think about it. It’s really hard to come up with ideas or things that you just will no longer tolerate in your life. So what would be the consequences then for these non negotiable items? I don’t know what they would be if any. Just a guide for what you or me would be willing to put up with. I no longer want to just tolerate living life. I want to thrive again. I will get there, it’s just going to take even more time than I anticipated.
Just more work on myself mentally. Work that will pay off in the long term. I know it will. I will be a better person for it and have a better life for it.
Casey, you are awesome and ridiculously inspiring. God bless you for not giving up and for trying to fight to thrive and move forward.
You’ve been through so much these last 4 years and no one is as strong as you are (though strength comes in different forms for all different reasons, as I’m sure you know).
You absolutely deserve that vacation and I hope it does happen for you this year. Relax on a beach with zero worries.
And you have me as a friend, and I can’t wait to see you again in person and hug you and laugh with you and cry with you.
It’s like you said, all of this recovery is a process and it can be so raw, jarring and emotion filled, but I hope and pray it is worth it in the end and you get the joy and happiness back that you so deserve. I continue to pray for you, for Anthony and for your family, that there is only good and peace in all of your futures and that you never are faced with that horrible disease again.
You hug your husband and family close, take that awesome vacation and start to thrive,because you are worth it, beautiful, amazing and super strong, and I love you girl.
Have a beautiful weekend and enjoy the Super Bowl!! 😉