No I don’t look sick.  When I meet new people do I tell them I have cancer (although technically yes, I am in remission).  Do I share “my secret”?  At what point if ever should people know?  There’s no playbook or how to on what to do in these situations.  It seriously freaks people out.  Most can’t really wrap their head around it and look visibly uncomfortable.  So, I don’t tell people.  But I also feel by not telling people I am lying.  It’s like no matter what I feel like a liar with secrets.  It’s weird…

Another year passes.  I have turned 33.   I don’t really care that I am older.  That doesn’t mean anything to me.  We all age and get old.  Die at some point.  I guess it means I am just one year closer to being done.  Done with the stint with cancer.  Just a blip on the radar.  Something to get past I guess.  How sad really but I truly can’t wait to get done.  Just 11 months left.  Only three LP’s with chemo left.  THAT’s it.  I can’t wait.  Wait….it’s all I can do right now.