A lot of people always comment, “I don’t know how you do it”, ” you are amazing”, “you look so good, I can’t believe you beat cancer”, “you are so strong” on and on with positive uplifting words. I know with all my heart people mean nothing but the best but the truth is…I am just doing what anyone else in my position would be doing. When you aren’t given a choice, you just do it. It’s like auto-pilot. I probably don’t talk about it as much as some people would expect and I definitely don’t tell strangers or people I just meet what I am going through. No one has any idea really, if they didn’t already know. Truth be told, I don’t care.
I don’t want to be the “sick” person. I just want my new fucking normal back. However horrible or life changing new life it may be. I just want this last year to be over. The article posted below is a lot of how I feel, just tired. I wish I could verbally express the way I feel like some of the articles I read.