I am paralyzed lately making any decisions.  It completely sucks.  Not small decisions but any sort of decision that is greater than “what are we having for dinner?”  My therapist says this is normal.  That after not having control for so long over the majority of what is happening on a day to day basis that it does take a toll.  So here I am not being able to make any decisions.  Ugh, so frustrating.  I just keep thinking that no matter what I choose, it’s going to be wrong.  Even when there is literally no bad decision to be made.  I even have a hard time making plans for larger things that totally stinks.  Dinner plans used to be no problem, now it’s like this five minute internal conversation.   I mean it’s just making dinner plans and my dumb brain can’t handle it.  Frustrating.

Fuck you cancer.  Just one more thing to pile on.  Thanks a lot.  Dumb stupid annoying cancer.  You truly suck.