No bone marrow biopsy yesterday.  Ugh, I hate the waiting game.  My ANC levels were not high enough.  WTF.  It is postponed until next week.  My levels will definitely be high enough.  I just want answers already.  I hate the unknown.  It’s so nerve racking.  I can’t stand it.  It’s creating such a horrible amount of anxiety that it’s driving me nuts.  I just want to know what is going to happen next no matter if it’s fucking awful or amazing to course 5.  I just want answers.  I feel paralyzed with my life.