Today is my “rest day” before engraftment tomorrow.  No more chemo or radiation.  No more dexamethasone at 20 mg a day.  I feel so bloated and disgusting.  Plus, I somehow gained 8 pounds of just fluid in just one day.  All liquids, not from food, considering I could barely keep any down.  Ugh, that was worse and yet not as bad as anticipated at the same time.  If that makes any sense.  So I am hoping engraftment goes extremely smooth.  My counts go down and then back up just like they are supposed to and no infections.  Just breathe.  It’s all I can do.  Do all that I can each day to make sure I put myself in the best position possible.  I have used the exercise bike and walked these halls everyday and will continue as long as I physically can.  So here we go….