I don’t know what is worse, someone trying to give you a lumbar punch for 45 minutes, trying to get the spot where fluid comes out or what?!?  It’s painfully, painful.  I know it’s not the doctor’s fault that I have had so many that the scar tissue has built up so badly he can no longer find the spot.  As tears came down my face from the pain, I just hoped he found the spot so I didn’t have to do it again.  With no such luck.  We are going to have to give it another go next month.  And they said only 5 more total left in all for this protocol.  Ugh, It’s so mentally and physically draining every time.  In the back of my mind I can’t help but think that I am going to have a CF leak and end up in the hospital.  I try to block it out but I just can’t sometimes.  Ohh well on to another day and more chemo….