Biopsy results came back and I am still in remission.   This is amazing news and puts my mind at ease.  I didn’t think I would get “scanxiety” ever since I try not to really think about it.  Whatever comes will come.  There is literally nothing I can do about it.  But this time around it feels different.  I tried not to give it power over my thoughts but it kept creeping in. I guess it’s hard not.  The very thought of having to start over or go through another intense round of chemo is just mind boggling.  But the weight has been lifted, well at least for another six months, until the next bone marrow biopsy.  I finally get it and it’s the worst.  A celebration of a little victory.