I am exhausted from being exhausted all the time.  I never feel rested or energized.  I know it has a lot to do with not sleeping and the meds I am taking, but truthfully it is exhausting.  I can’t believe I have to do this for another year and seven months.  I know most people would look at it like “yes, only one year and seven months to go”.  I just can’t right now.  I am tired.  I am run down.  I have had enough.  I feel like a zombie 99% of the time.  There isn’t enough caffeine on the planet to help me get through some of my days.

I ask myself these questions, pretty regularly:

Did I go back to work too soon?  Should I take a day off just to re-coupe?  Should I really be in ten plus hours of traffic every week?  Should I start taking sleep meds, because of course what is one more drug in the grand scheme of things?  Am I pushing myself too hard?  Do I need a vacation?  Do I just need a break?